Lying Fear

Ahhhh, I did it again
Fear came and rose like a tidal wave and I believed it just long enough to run onto the bridge and attempt to steer this ship out of danger
Fear lied, there was no wave
Fear always lies

I stop and look as I slowly move my hands away from the controls
And I find myself staring love in the eyes
My own fill with tears as I see how easily I can forget love and how faithful he is
With a rueful smile he asks what the problem is, as if he doesn’t know
He knows the movement of weather systems and the current place of every molecule of the water on which we sail
And so too does he know my heart
He smiles as he does, not because my fear is funny, but because all that is needed to end fear is already with me – in him
The one who knows me best and loves me most

Death, where is your sting now? Gone?
Yes I see that now, even though yesterday it felt real and close enough to harm my future
Plain sailing from now on, really
I know it is true when I keep in mind who is steering this ship
It’s only in forgetting that the waves rise high

“At ease dear heart, return to your cabin, rest, sleep, be at peace. You will be just fine because perfect love is leading you, and fear cannot survive” 

naomi sarah